So, I don't have MS???

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aw my new neurologist today. He's based in Huntsville but comes to a town 30 minutes away once a month for patients like me who can't/don't want to drive that far.

He wants to do another spinal tap since my last one didn't show that I had MS. Yay. (sarcasm. those fuckers are painful!!!)

I also saw my latest MRI (taken last month) and JESUS. The whole back of my brain has plaques. Like if a person died on their back and all the fluid settled like that = My brain. Wheeeeeeee.

Anyway he wants to do the new tap to see if it shows my MS or I might have something else????????????

Whatever, I'm going to take a nap. ☺

Thank you, Spam!

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irst of all, thank you Pookie for sending me that email. Where is your blog, BTW? Do you use Twitter? Just trying to throw some Link Love your way. ;-)

So, I got a chain letter e-mail from Pookie (AKA Aria) & I guess I was in a good mood or something because I actually forwarded it.

......

It said to forward it to 10 people & I'd get a blessing within 24 hours. So I sent it along to some people. (I never forward those things to the # of people suggested, mainly because I don't want that many people having my e-mail. I can't imagine that amt of spam! I have one e-mail that I'll give to anyone & the other one for friends and family. So if you haven't heard from me 4 months after you sent me an e-mail, guess which address you have...

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Anyway, I just stopped by to post this screen cap of this exchange between my BFF's daughter & myself.



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What Dreams did you have?

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irst, a little catch-up.

My left hand is feeling almost normal.
My Right hand still has a little of the pins & needles & numbness going on.
I think I've forgotten how to type.
My Bell's Palsy is GONE thank the Lord.
My feet STAY swollen even if I keep my feet propped up above my heart all day.
Finished ALL of my school shopping TAX-FREE in 2 days.
I think that's it?

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Anyway, my question is: What dreams did you have for your child pre-parenthood that you don't have now that you "know" your child/children?

I never intended or expected to have any children. (God had other plans, LOL.)

Anyway, when I was pregnant I had been going to weekly therapy & taking anti-depressants. (I stopped all meds when I found out I was knocked up)

But once I decided to keep the baby I started really wondering why I (a person with NO maternal instincts or even babysitting experience) was pregnant.

My pregnancy was physical hell, not to mention the fact that I was unmarried, mentally fucked up, and basically Ramen Noodle Poor.

I started wondering why God had put me in this situation. I thought my baby might grow up to be the First Black President (Thanks, Obama...), or that he might discover the cure for cancer, or something really amazing.

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That's what kept me going when I came home to an empty house & fridge.

Then I met my baby.

He was THE most perfect baby in the world & his first few years (up till school started) more than made up for my hellish pregnancy.

I still had Presidential/Nobel Award Winner aspirations for him.

He saved my life too. Literally. I knew I had to stay alive to make sure he grew up as a well-adjusted & contributing member of society. I knew it was MY PURPOSE to raise this child.

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Anyway...

Now?

HA!

Don't get me wrong, I love Evan to pieces even when I want to smack the shit out of him. Or choke him. Or run away. Or send him away until he's 25ish.

I just don't have those lofty goals in my head for him.

I just want him to stay alive until he's at least 18. I don't want him to have any drug/alcohol problems. I don't want him knocking up some WHORE. I want him to gradute. I want him to go to college or pick a career that he loves. AND I don't want him to eat me out of house & home.


That's not too much to ask, right? ;-)
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